4/10 – I had a GP appointment first thing. I explained that I had been feeling angry, tired and lacking in any sort of motivation. I was aware that some of this was directed towards work. My medication has been lowered to 30mg with a view to switching over, but I have to ‘come down’ off these ones yet. I have to return to Dr next week and I have been given another sick certificate for 28 days.
I took my prescription books on mindfulness and depression back to the library as they did not interest me.
I think it is time for me to admit that the reason why I am struggling with a work return is because it is a factor in my depression. I don’t think I can deal with being a cop anymore; it is as if it has beaten me.