Googling ‘self harm’
I still have the overwhelming urge to self harm. My thoughts today have been around cutting myself with a razor blade. I still have no idea why. I have even googled ways to self harm (as if I don’t already know). Another possible way is to stop eating but I am always hungry! I could do this as I know there will be no pain.
I have no interest in being at work. My head isn’t in it. I feel emotional and I am not coping very well.
After I wrote the above I went to the bathroom and got a razor. The razor was blunt. I can’t even get that right. I think I will go back to the no eating plan.